Oh nostalgia, I don't need you anymore

We've been staying at my stepdad's parents' house for about two weeks now. Its been very chill, and very nice to be here again. I can't remember the last time I was here, but its a couple of years at least! So yea, we're not in London anymore! I miss London, but for the moment this is the right thing.

I've been worrying about my future a lot lately. I hate that I don't really know where I'm headed. I know what things I like doing and such, I just don't know if there's anything I'd like to do as a career. And I've been kinda wanting to go to uni lately. Like I miss studying? Wtf? How can I miss that? The other day I even found myself trying to do random maths, because I missed it. WHO ARE YOU?!? :-P I always hated maths, which is why I found this particular nostalgia odd. Oh well.

These past few days I've been feeling kind of down, and been having some negative thoughts about the world and myself. I was thinking how I wanted to just give up, and just not care anymore, when I thought to myself: "I don't want to be that kind of person." A person who gives up, what? No, that's not me. And even though being super-positive and optimistic doesn't come as naturally to me as me being hard on myself, or negative towards myself, I want to try being better. I want to be happy and optimistic, okay?? :-) I do believe that there's beauty all around us, and I want to be the kind of person who sees it. Life is meant to be enjoyed isn't it? Lived?

On a completely different note, my tattoo is almost completely healed now. I'm getting more used to it now, but I still can't wait till its completely healed, and just a part of me. I wonder if I'll get more, and if so, what? I'm already thinking that I want more, but I don't know what, haha. But everyone says that after you've had your first tattoo, you either don't want another, or you'll want another straight away, so yea, I know which category I fall in.

(Thank you for getting me a pink camera for my birthday mum, look how pretty, lol ^-^)

 

 

(I like my hair like this, but I get bored so fast! I'm already wanting to change it, and its only been a few weeks! -__- What to do now?)

 

 

(S said it looks like I wanna have sex with my tattoo... well, I do love it a lot, but lets not take it that far, haha! :-P I just like to show it off a lot, la! Deal.)

(I found it fascinating how these two pictures are so similar but one is black and one is more white. All I did is have the flash on in one! :-p maybe I'm dumb, but I think the difference is amazing.)

(I'm so boring in pictures, they're all the same! Sorry... -__-)

(Here's me pretending I don't like being photographed... Lol, what a joke, but again I'm only showing off my tattoo! ;-) hah.)

 

 

I think that should be all. For now ;-)

~Kitty~ "Just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die. You've gotta get up and try, try, try."