Oh nostalgia, I don't need you anymore

We've been staying at my stepdad's parents' house for about two weeks now. Its been very chill, and very nice to be here again. I can't remember the last time I was here, but its a couple of years at least! So yea, we're not in London anymore! I miss London, but for the moment this is the right thing.

I've been worrying about my future a lot lately. I hate that I don't really know where I'm headed. I know what things I like doing and such, I just don't know if there's anything I'd like to do as a career. And I've been kinda wanting to go to uni lately. Like I miss studying? Wtf? How can I miss that? The other day I even found myself trying to do random maths, because I missed it. WHO ARE YOU?!? :-P I always hated maths, which is why I found this particular nostalgia odd. Oh well.

These past few days I've been feeling kind of down, and been having some negative thoughts about the world and myself. I was thinking how I wanted to just give up, and just not care anymore, when I thought to myself: "I don't want to be that kind of person." A person who gives up, what? No, that's not me. And even though being super-positive and optimistic doesn't come as naturally to me as me being hard on myself, or negative towards myself, I want to try being better. I want to be happy and optimistic, okay?? :-) I do believe that there's beauty all around us, and I want to be the kind of person who sees it. Life is meant to be enjoyed isn't it? Lived?

On a completely different note, my tattoo is almost completely healed now. I'm getting more used to it now, but I still can't wait till its completely healed, and just a part of me. I wonder if I'll get more, and if so, what? I'm already thinking that I want more, but I don't know what, haha. But everyone says that after you've had your first tattoo, you either don't want another, or you'll want another straight away, so yea, I know which category I fall in.

(Thank you for getting me a pink camera for my birthday mum, look how pretty, lol ^-^)

 

 

(I like my hair like this, but I get bored so fast! I'm already wanting to change it, and its only been a few weeks! -__- What to do now?)

 

 

(S said it looks like I wanna have sex with my tattoo... well, I do love it a lot, but lets not take it that far, haha! :-P I just like to show it off a lot, la! Deal.)

(I found it fascinating how these two pictures are so similar but one is black and one is more white. All I did is have the flash on in one! :-p maybe I'm dumb, but I think the difference is amazing.)

(I'm so boring in pictures, they're all the same! Sorry... -__-)

(Here's me pretending I don't like being photographed... Lol, what a joke, but again I'm only showing off my tattoo! ;-) hah.)

 

 

I think that should be all. For now ;-)

~Kitty~ "Just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die. You've gotta get up and try, try, try."

Wow. Fantastic Baby

How do you start a blog? Hello? Its been a while since I did this, and lots of things have happened. I've been thinking about getting back into it for a while, but I kept putting it off. If you want something to get done though, you have to just do it, so here I am again. ^_^
Today seems like a good day to start though, because I do have exciting things to share! (exciting for me anyways :P) I got my first tattoo today! First but hopefully not the last. It was different to what I had imagined the pain to be like, but I'm glad I've done it, even though its probably gonna take a few days for me to realise that its actually real. Haha, I'm still looking at it in awe every few minutes just to see that its still there.

Oh look, still there ;)

I've been in England since September now, and have been living here with my friend S. Its strange because everytime I come back to England I don't feel like I've moved away from home; I feel like I'm coming back home. I thought about it, and I think London is to me what New York is to Carrie. Its home, and its special, and it doesn't matter if I'm alone because I'm home. That being said, its been super fun living with S for the first time. We've seen each other every day for exactly two months, which is the longest we've ever spent together. I'm amazed that we're not even sick of each other yet :P (no offence S, but I know I can be an annoying kid most some of the time, lol.) I'm really happy we got to have this experience and I just hope we'll keep being able to live together in the year ahead.

I'm still looking forward to going back to Norway for Christmas though. Seeing all the family, baking cookies and hopefully play in the snow! Fingers crossed!

Wah, its getting late, and we have church in the morning, so I'm gonna leave it there. Its nice being back. Almost feels like I never left at all ^_^

Sweet dreams (or beautiful nightmares) <3

~Leene~ "And I'm talking to myself at night, because I can't forget." .xxx